Hi all! Happy Hump-Day!
It’s that time of the year again when my born day comes and goes. And I’d like to reflect on how it went. Events that led to the special day were the Sacrament of Reconciliation, which I had not done for a while, then my pastor lent me an audiobook after hearing my confession. The audiobook was called The Dream Manager by Matthew Kelly. I don’t have the patience to sit down and read books nowadays. I know it’s something others enjoy but I prefer to listen to it as I do something else, whether it be typing this blog post or sitting on the porcelain throne. So, after he lent it to me, he told me I had until Friday (Good Friday) to return it. So, I immediately jumped at the chance to listen to the audiobook. It took me a little more than 3 hours to listen to the whole book and it’s an amazing story. I wish I had dream manager to help me with my dreams or lack thereof. To help me come up with something that I can aim towards and work towards and fulfill it. Because right now I’m honestly just in limbo. Floating around, picking up random gigs when and where I can, studying random courses, and trying my best not to spend money, that’s about it. Just trying to stay afloat. Seems like I’m always against the currents in my boat with no paddles. I’m not even sure how that works. Apparently, my hands acting as paddles helps a bit and I gain ground bit by bit. Anyway, after the whole audiobook thing, I had a small celebration with just a couple of friends and that was about it. Drank a bit and then went out catching Pokémon and doing a raid. Doesn’t take much to please me. Fine company, alcohol, and some gaming. There’s not much else to say. Happy Easter?
At the moment I’m really confused as to whether that beast lurking around the corner is really there or not. I had a feeling last week it was and then this week seemed to start off with renewed vigor but still not much is getting done. Sometimes I look back and I feel like despite my vigor, I’ve gone backwards several steps. Which is an annoying feeling. I don’t like how this rocking back and forth and sitting on the fence feeling feels. Not knowing which way and when I’ll tip over to one side or the other. It’s anxiety provoking for me and stress inducing. Overall, just feeling in a very blah mood. I think we all know that feeling or have experienced it at one time or another.
Anyway, have a great WTF rest of the week!